♥aeen

2012-02-11T05:50:00.001+08:00

I'll be heading to Phuket & Batam, bf will be heading to US. I wish he could tag along and vice versa. I want a holiday getaway, with you included in the package. Next year?

Working morning shift on a Saturday is seriously, not funny. Working morning shift for 6 straight days + 1 afternoon shift, and thus being rewarded with a 1 day off, is f*ck*ng ridiculous. 1 day off je? Kau nak aku rest ape during that 1 day? Mengarut sia.

2012-02-09T04:46:00.001+08:00

Woke up feeling all fucked up for my morning shift, then i saw this on my phone. Makes me smile like a pedophile.

2012-02-07T22:31:00.001+08:00

I have issues with my self esteem. I hate it the way I'm feeling right now. I feel horrible. It makes me wanna cry, not talk or see anyone. Why must I be me and not somebody else? I don't like me.

2012-02-07T14:42:00.004+08:00

Eka's 22nd Birthday Surprise :D

Surprise dinner at Rasa rasa thai seafood restaurant.

I had to lie to her, to make her believe that it was just gonnabe the two of us.

More surprises came at Woodlands Waterfront.

We were like 18 year old kids, climbing, running, swinging.

Behaving just like secondary school kids with our secondary school mates.

"We are not FAT, we are TAF (TOUGH)!!!"

Great night.

Happy birthday Eka.

Love you babe.

2012-01-30T16:27:00.008+08:00

At times like this, i'm at my lowest. Your sarcasm, your words, that look you gave me. I can't take it anymore Am i really that fucked? How come you're the only one who seem to have issues with me. Seriously, I feel like giving everything up but I've went through 2 months of shit & I'm only left with 3 weeks to endure. At that moment, when you said those mean words, I felt like pushing you against the wall and punch you right in the face. Bitch. But, I got to be humble. I'm nothing there. I'm just a student. I know where I stand.

Right now, I don't feel like going back to work.
Right now, I need to find my ego, to boost up my confidence. Oh crap. Where has it gone too?

I'm excited for this posting to end, but I'm also afraid to be a Staff Nurse. I'm not ready.

I want to quit nursing and switch career.

I wanna be a teacher.

Teacher's starting salary > Staff nurse's starting salary

Teacher's benefits > Staff nurse's benefits

WTF right. ikr.

Insyallah, upon completing my 3 years bond at sgh, I shall switch career.

It's never too late. I'm only turning 22, I'm still young.

2012-01-28T00:22:00.001+08:00

2012-01-26T14:56:00.001+08:00

Cheers to the long weekend, I've been meeting my boy back to back for three days. From exploring ghost town on cny, to having supper everynight together, to freezing chilling ghost stories sharing with his friends at the wee hours. Thanks to cny, we both had four days off. BAIK. Now, its back to our busy working schedule. Ouh man life is so mundane.

Counting down, 4 weeks left~
I can't wait for this shit to be over.

I love you babe.

2012-01-25T12:05:00.001+08:00

Flight + hotel for phuket = booked & paid.
Ferry + hotel for Batam = booked & paid.

The aftermath = BROKE.

2012-01-24T17:10:00.001+08:00

2012-01-22T22:41:00.002+08:00

The thing about being in love is that you cannot imagine your life without that person, you truly believe that you will not be able to function without them by your side. But the thing is, when they leave you do, you keep going because you have to and then eventually you move on and get over them and wonder why you ever thought that you needed them in your life. WORD.

2012-01-17T23:39:00.002+08:00

Any kind soul mind wasting $199 on me? Birthday present please?

Hahahaha.

Maybe I'll ditch Jessie J's concert and get these sexy pair of kicks instead.

2012-01-16T04:38:00.005+08:00

Beachy girlfriend date!

What's more perfect than spending your day at the beach? Relaxing indeed.

I love today. I feel like rewinding and playing back everything all over again.

I foresee that tomorrow is gonna be another great day too.

Why?

Firstly, i'll be meeting my boyfriend.

Secondly, i'll be meeting my boyfriend.

Thirdly, i'll be meeting my boyfriend.

Fourth, i'll be meeting my boyfriend.

hehehehe.

budak gemok excited.

2012-01-11T12:39:00.001+08:00

My 2011 resolution was to settle down because 2010 was bad ass. In 2010, I fucked things up. I cheated. I lied. I manipulate. I toyed with hearts. I was a bitch.

But eventually i did achieve my 2011 resolution, I settled down, and I ended every shit that was happening.

I wish I could turn back time and undo my mistakes. But I couldn't.

I've changed. That's what matter most right?

I am sorry. ily.

2012-01-09T21:16:00.005+08:00

EH. He is my first love right? COOL.

Maybe one day I'll say this to our daughter.

HAHA.. Berangan.

5 days down, 5 more days to go.

Orang gila je kerja 10 hari straight.

2011-12-31T12:30:00.008+08:00

Hey 2011, you've been great but we gotta move on.

2010 was crazy. 2011 was a better year.

I received great results for my final year exam.

I bought a new phone together with Atap (only god knows what happened to his).

I got closer to my family.

I learnt baking and started loving it.

I got through my first month of intensive PRCP.

I took my bike license, (fail).

I met a whole lot group of new people.

I began to love and cherish this one boy, even deeply.

2011 has opened my eyes to the world.

2012 is gonnabe a great year. It's gonnabe a different year.

I am going to be a staff nurse at SGH in April.

I am going to get my license and registration from Singapore Nursing Board.

I am going to wear my graduation gown and make my parents proud.

I am going to Phuket for my sweet sweet march holiday.

My resolution for this new 2012.

To be a dedicated, knowledgeable and caring staff nurse.

TO LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST!

That's my simple resolution. What's yours?

MY FOUR DAYS OFF STARTS TODAY. YEAY. BEST GILA.

2011-12-29T18:29:00.004+08:00

One of the best malaysian love film.

Ombak Rindu.

♥

"Tuhan, tolong lembutkan hati dia, untuk terima ku seadanya.

Kerna ku tak sanggup dan ku tak mampu,

Hidup tanpa dia di sisi ku.."

2011-12-23T11:55:00.002+08:00

I have to deal with this, every morning. Love hate relationship with my bed.

2011-12-16T20:50:00.001+08:00

2 well spent off days with you. Finally, I can go to work with a sexy smile on my face tomorrow. :D

2011-12-11T17:33:00.001+08:00

"A night spent at jo's bdae party. Both my bestfriends and boyfriend were there. What more can i ask for? Grateful. Alhamdullilah."

2011-12-04T14:10:00.011+08:00

This scares me.

I have a feeling that it's true.

Subhanallah.

Wow. My 2 weeks holiday is coming to an end. 3 months of torture will start from tmr onwards. I am not fully prepared yet. I still need to read up. I shall start my day with a Bismillah, and end it with Alhamdullilah, every single day.

2011-11-30T00:43:00.003+08:00

I am thankful to have you, instead of other cheat bastards out there. Yeah, he's one of the good guys that's taken. And yes, i am keeping him for good. I love you.

2011-11-26T14:41:00.014+08:00

Adventuring @ Pulau Ubin.

Someone damn excited to go Pulau Ubin. Mata pon hilang. HAHA.

An impromptu trip to Pulau Ubin because my boy had 2 straight off days. We enjoyed endless opportunities of adventure, nature appreciation and interesting wildlife. We cycled to the part of Ubin that I've never been to. Sweet sweet adventuring day.

2011-11-24T14:25:00.005+08:00

Team 0913 @ Pahlawan Beach!

Yanti's birthday!

Volleyball time!

Captain's ball time!

The best girls outing ever. Sporty and fun day!

2011-11-22T14:10:00.003+08:00

Our days in St Joseph Home. 24/10/11-18/11/11

Our dance performance for the residents and staffs.

2011-11-21T11:54:00.002+08:00

20/11/2011

Dewi's Wedding Ceremony.

2011-11-19T13:26:00.001+08:00

A perfect hot Apple Crumble on this rainy day.

2011-11-16T20:16:00.006+08:00

Our last FRUIT JUICE day at SJH!

FUN FUN FUN.

"You're a nurse? That's cool, I wanted to do that when I was a kid. What do you make?"

WHAT DO I MAKE?

-I make holding your hand seem like the most important thing in the world when you're scared.

-I can make your child breathe when they stop.

-I can help your father survive a heart attack.

-I make myself get out of bed at 5am to make sure your mother has the medicine she needs to live.

-I work all day to save the lives of strangers.

-I make my family wait for dinner until I know your family member is taken cared of.

-I make myself skip lunch so that I can make sure that everything I did for your husband today is charted.

-I make myself work weekends and holidays because people don't just get sick Monday-Friday.

Today, I might save your life.

"I MAKE A DIFFERENCE, what do you make?"

2011-11-13T21:50:00.008+08:00

So, I got bored and I had fun playing with my new App, Toonpaint.

Haha. Muka Atap colour-colour.

It was raining heavily just now, and I texted him,

Aeen: Hujan lebat gila syg kat sini.. So cold. Brrrrr. I wish you were here to hug me.

Atap: I wish I could too. But I have to work to support our 7 children.

LOFL.

He's full of nonsense. But i love every bit of it.

Gosh I miss him.

This once a week meet up sucks. Feels like he's in NS all over again. :(

2011-11-12T20:24:00.007+08:00

Cuzzie's Solemnization Ceremony cum Wedding

The Solemnization Ceremony and Wedding takes place at Tanah Merah Kechil.

My first time attending a wedding in a bungalow house.

2011-11-08T20:50:00.009+08:00

Anira's 20th Potluck Birthday Surprise @ SJH

FOOD FOOD AND MORE FOOD!

Happy Birthday Anira!

2011-11-07T00:39:00.005+08:00

Ain't it beautiful?

i asked him:

kalau i kahwin, i nak pakai saree and wedding gown boleh? i taknak baju melayu.

he answered:

okay, wedding gown because of my race and saree because of your race right?

HAHAHAHAHA.

2011-11-05T19:03:00.002+08:00

Sweet treats for the long weekend.

I baked, Banana Choc Chip Muffin and Chewy Choc Chip cookies.

YUMMEHHH.

Selamat Hari Raya Haji people.

2011-11-04T18:30:00.006+08:00

WE NURSE, WE SING, WE DANCE, WE LAUGH, WE LOVE, WE BITCH

We dance at the physio room @ SJH, during our breaktime.

Practicing our moves for our performance, which is in 2 weeks time. So fun!

Finally, friday has arrived. Am looking forward to the long weekend.

I'll be able to have my late night meet ups with my boy. Like finally. YEAAAH BABY...

2011-10-26T01:06:00.000+08:00

WEEEEE...

2011-10-22T01:28:00.001+08:00

Heyo pussy cat.I love you.
I'll pray that one day my dad wld change his mind
and finally allow me to keep one.

2011-10-20T13:37:00.001+08:00

2011-10-17T01:42:00.000+08:00

Fat Ronald Mcdonald. hehe.

Had lil bit too much cheeseburgers.

2011-10-15T23:49:00.002+08:00

Ben&Jerry's Chunkfest with ze Girls.

2011-10-13T22:52:00.004+08:00

Nurses @ Zoo!

Thank god it didn't rain today.

2011-10-12T00:02:00.009+08:00

Movie date with Atap last night. Yeayyyy. He always makes my day. We caught Real Steel at The Grand Cathay last night. The movie was great. 4.5/5. The robot's name was Atom. I told him that I want to name our son after Atom. He agreed and told me that we'll name our future son, Anaqi Atom. hahahaha.

I think he ate too much wasabi.

My mum said he looks like Abhishek Bachchan.

Ade ade je mak aku ni.

I don't think Atap look like him at all. Tetapi mak aku degil, mati2 cakap muka die mcm Abhishek. Jauh seh muka. hahahha.

2011-10-09T23:59:00.004+08:00

On this sunny Sunday, I made strawberry cheesecake.

2011-10-08T23:16:00.003+08:00

It was Sabrina's big day! I attended solemnisation ceremony @ Masjid Assyafaah and wedding. I arrived at the right moment when everyone was making their way to the mosque. Sabrina looks beautiful in white. When I saw her at her place, I shrieked, "Chubb Chubb canteknye!......".

The boys were there at the mosque too. They became our camera man for the day. Fariqqin very selenge, I asked him to take pictures, but he took like 10 videos of the pernikahan. No pictures. Haiya, make my life susah aje. After the pernikahan, we totally forgot about them, and left them at the mosque with our cameras. Poor thing, they had to walk all the way back, while Sab's dad drove us back. Haha. Sorry boys.

It was a fun day. Its a really good thing that I turned up. Those who didn't, you missed out on good food, great laughters and great reunion.

Selamat Pengantin baru my dear Sabrina.

At Sab's nenek place

Our beautiful bride

At the mosque. Solemnisation ceremony.

After the solemnisation ceremony, while waiting for the wedding to start.

Waiting for Aidil, Apit, and supposedly Eka.

Fira's son, Ariz. He has the softest cheek ever. I like!

Aeen, Anna, Fira, Ariz.

With Sufi and Fadil. They chased us to take a shot together. lol.

The boys.

Wedding ceremony.

Selamat Pengatin baru Sabrini & Sabrina.

2011-10-05T22:42:00.001+08:00

Guess what I made today? Mac and cheese. Yeah baby yeah.

2011-10-03T06:29:00.001+08:00

Hi world. I miss my adventurous life. If only I am an ang moh, I would do everything, all by myself. I wouldn't care what others think of me. lol.

My bf saw this pic and he said,
Him: So cute!! Hey, we should adopt an ang moh baby, once we get married!! *excited tone*

Him: And when he grows up, he will ask, "Why does my mummy look chinese, my daddy look indian, but I look white? Why mummy why?"

I swear I wanted to slap his face.

2011-10-02T19:18:00.004+08:00

Sweet Treats Weekend

I had a boring weekend. All I did was stayed at home, watched movies, and did some baking.

I sure get jealous when i see my girlfriends going on dates with their boyfriends. I also want.

Saturday, baked Apple pie. It didn't turn out that well. Hangus! haha. Well, my mum said it's 'garing' not hangus, i don't know lah.

Sunday, baked chocolate brownie. Made it from scratch but my aunt thought I used some ready made 'betty crocker' brownie mix. lol. It looks like chocolate cake instead. But it sure is chocolaty. I was generous with the amount of chocolate I put in. haha.

So that's how I spent my weekend. BORING.

2011-09-29T23:14:00.005+08:00

Celebrated Khairi's birthday with these people. It's been so long since I last saw them. I forgot how crazy they were. We had dinner at Pastamania, surprised Khairi with a birthday cake and caught a movie at GV. And yes, I watched Johnny English for the second time. LOL.

I can't wait for Sabrina's wedding next saturday. Can't wait to see these people again. Hope most of the people we know from Canberra Sec would turn up. Yeayyyy.

Our 'penat' faces

2011-09-28T23:59:00.000+08:00

Picnic with my girls @ BOTANIC. YEAY! It was a hot hot afternoon. Everyone was excited, hot and sweaty. We brought our own share of food. Played twister, did some dares. It was a fun day with them. I love my girls <3

My oreo cheesecake!

Anira's addictive pizza

Suane's cheese sticks

TWIST IT BABY!

I rushed home after the picnic, bathe and got ready to meet my boy. It was his off day too. Caught Johnny English Reborn ( Thumbs up. Damn funny movie. ) We head to Clarke Quay after that to chill and by the time we reached home, we're both damn tired. I always have a great time with him.

My lesbian boyfriend wears my red lipstick and kissed me on the thigh.

Can you spot the hottest bike in this carpark? haha.

2011-09-27T20:13:00.001+08:00

My second attempt. Yeay! This is for my girls tmr.

2011-09-26T09:56:00.001+08:00

My home made oreo cheesecake. My first trial. It looks very 'comot' but it taste good. Very sweet. Too sweet for my liking. My sibs love it. Heheheee. I made some mistakes here and there, but it's my first time, what do you expect.

I will bake this again on tues night, for my 'all girls desserts picnic @ botanic'. I hope the cake will turn out good. I hope my girls will love it. Insyallah. Next week i wanna try to bake brownies. A request from eka.

2011-09-25T16:11:00.001+08:00

Saturday was a BLAST. Had an impromtu shopping date with Yuyut! I was shopping alone at H&M when I received a call from her, "Gemok gemok gemok, kau kat mane? Jom keluar!". We headed to Expo, and they were having a mega flea market sale, it was HEAVEN for both of us. MAC & NYX make up were on sale, clothes, tops, everything was there. They were selling popcorns as cheap as 50 cents per packet too. Oh my god, i love yut for telling me about this sale.

Bought alot of things at the flea market. Concealers and eyeshadow set were as cheap as 7bucks. AHHH! I bought my boyfriend the beats earpiece too. I know he's been wanting it since last month, so I secretly get him one. hehehe.. I don't know why but I just love making surprises for this boy. I love to see that surprised smile on his face. It feels so good when you make someone you love happy.

Boyfriend and I head to this floating platform somewhere between the flyers and kallang river. No, it's not the floating stadium. We had to climb through a gate to get in. We trespassed I guess, this is not the first time anyway. It was cold, romantic, breezy, and quiet. Just us. No one else. Yeay. And Atap found a dead fish, he got sexcited. Haha.

He was trying to take a picture of my mole. LOL.

Perfect night with you baby.

2011-09-23T21:11:00.002+08:00

End of Operating Threater posting. Like finally. It has been a draggy week. It is an interesting posting but it's just not my type of tea. Facing the four walls, bearing with the surgeons, stuck up staff nurses and the cold 16 degrees celsius, for 8 hours, is hell. Finally, now comes my 1 month holidays and I'm sick. Feeling giddy, feverish and down with diarrhea. Must be food poisoning. SIGH. My poor fat tummy.

i miss my boyfriend. i wish he's right here to make me feel better.

2011-09-20T20:57:00.008+08:00

Having my Operating Theatre posting now. This posting is such a drag. Anw, just received my semestral examination result just now, at 8am. I was really nervous. I had a feeling that I was going to fail one of the papers. But Alhamdullilah, I passed everything. And surprisingly with a couple of 'A's. HAHA! HAPPY! I kept repeating "Alhamdullilah, Syukur". Hehe..

I miss going Adventuring!

Ubin anyone? Or to any part of the world that is near?

Batam? Genting?

My one month hols will start next week.

I nak buat benda bukan-bukan.

I wanna do sports.

I want to sleep for 12 hours.

I wanna go adventuring.

I wanna go tanning.

I wanna go wild wild wet.

I wanna go on a short trip holiday.

And etc..

But one thing for sure, when I reach phuket next march,

I WANT TO BUNGEE JUMP.

How I wish my boyfriend would be there, jumping with me.

2011-09-17T05:15:00.004+08:00

A week has gone by, and there goes my A&E posting. It was a fun&interesting posting. I would definitely consider working there when I graduate later on. I'll be having my Operating Theatre posting, this coming week. ZZZZ. Hope everything will go well. *cross fingers*. I did bump into M a couple of times around SGH but it didn't bother me much. He's just one of the guys I toyed with. LOL.

I didn't had time to blog because I've been too busy juggling work, my social life and sleeping time. Earlier this week, my atapio brought me to Bottle Tree Bar&Bistro to wine&dine. An impromptu one. He got off work unexpectedly early and brought me there. Heeee :) An informal wine dining @ Bottle Tree. Awesome.

I came across this video. It made me laugh ALONE in public. LOL. Should start watching 0:25 onwards. So cute and funny!

I can't stand his big stomach and face expressions! Hahahaha. He is so flexible and jiggly. I admire his enthusiasm. I like fat kids.

2011-09-12T20:56:00.002+08:00

First day of posting at A&E @ SGH. Started the morning by bumping into Muaaz at SGH. I was like omg, seriously?? (Eka's fav line) . he said a few words to me but I was still in shock. I totally forgot that he works there. I guess I'll see him everyday because he'll be everywhere in SGH.

2011-09-11T02:24:00.008+08:00

Beachy saturday with my bitch

An impromptu last minute plan to Sentosa with my bitch. We plan to go tanning but it wasn't our day. Mr sun was barely there. It was a cold & cloudy day. We headed to Bora-bora beach bar at Pahlawan. Great booze, great music, great atmosphere, great people. Everyone was friendly, and we made friends with some hawaiian & puerto rican guys from the US military too. They sound HOT don't they? Hahahaa. BUYA! BUYAAAAAAA!

We were invited to Azzura but maybe next time right eka?

I wanna go tanning. Grrr.. Probably in 2 saturdays time.

Haiya where's my bf, faster come home lah, i wanna sleep.

2011-09-07T22:42:00.010+08:00

My boy and I have some holiday plans. My Phuket trip, and his US trip. We created our own piggybank at home. All geared up to save up for our holiday. 2012, I can't wait for you!

MINE :)

ATAP'S :)

I didn't expect him to search the whole house for a mini piggybank too. hehe. so kepo.

He even use the same shampoo. i know very kental but cute.

hehe. iloveyou.

2011-09-06T20:31:00.010+08:00

Nurses @ Carousel !

Had a dinner buffet with my nursing girls @ Carousel last night. The food was amazing, beautiful ambience and friendly service. We ate our hearts out. Lobsters, oysters, choc fondue, tiramisu, kebab, everything was there. Amazing night with the girls :)

Lobster!

Cheesecakes and choc fondue

Happy belated Lynna Loy!

A mini bdae card/polaroid from Carousel.

Seafood baby!

Classic Tiramisu.

Chocolate fondues.

It's Fahmi's birthday today and we had a mini-celebration when the clock struck 12 midnight. My boyfriend and I head to Mustafa to get our last minute gift for this Fat Birthday Boy.

He likes it and he's a happy fat boy.

2011-09-04T04:05:00.001+08:00

I want to do nothing but be alone and cry myself to sleep right now.

2011-09-02T02:30:00.007+08:00

A perfect decent/crazy dinner outing with the SPH girls. Natt just got back from London and Harfia from KL. Dinner at Ayam Penyet Ria, the service totally suck. That would be the FIRST & LAST time I'm stepping my foot in there. Oh did I mention that there was a cockroach less than 1 metre away from me? Urgh..

Damn tired right now, don't really have the mood to blog. Sigh.

Eka- All pictures are uploaded at FB, under 'SPH dinner (PRIVATE)' . Go grab it.

Goodnight people.

Eka is having the best 5 seconds of her life.

Dinner at Ayam Penyet Ria

When Nat goes wild..

2011-08-30T23:59:00.000+08:00

My booms damn big please. Kind of irritating.

My two most fav cousins, mummy's side.

Cousins :)

Selamat Hari Raya!

First day of Raya was great! Met my lovely cousins and aunties, our non-stop laughters, our gossips, haahahahaha. How I wish it's hari raya everyday. Started the day by asking for forgiveness from both my parents. lol. Felt so paiseh to cry in front of them. I have a huge ego. I know. Proceeded to my neighbour's house and then to my nenek's place at Pasir Ris to meet up with my dad's side.

We had to rush back home before 6 because my mum's side will be raya-ing at my place. Overall, raya was great. And I still do get green packets. HAHA. Rezeki.

Hari raya is the month where we tighten our silaturahim among our friends and family. :D

Going out to meet my boyfriend now. So tired but i miss him. OK bye.

My handsome boy

Best mummy in the whole wide world.

Yes, i am very tall.

AWWWW

First time Raya-ing at our new place

Candid shot in my room.

2011-08-29T22:04:00.009+08:00

Eve of Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Malam Raya

It's the end of ramadhan. Alhamdullilah, we were able to make it till the end of ramadhan.

Insyallah, we will be able to meet the next ramadhan again, next year.

Upon hearing the takbir, I couldn't control those tears. Masyallah, subhanallah.

Syawal has arrived. Selamat Hari Raya to all my muslim friends. Maaf zahir dan batin.

I beg for forgiveness if I've ever hurt anyone's feelings in any way.

Selamat Hari Raya!

Malam raya, main bunga api sambil berjumping-jumping macam beruk.

Lepas tu, pasang lap-lip.

Budak gemok tgh dreaming pasal makanan

2011-08-28T11:49:00.001+08:00

Very satisfied with my new sony cybershot. Worth the kah-chings. Yeaaaaay :) I'm loving it.

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2011-08-24T16:31:00.001+08:00

Today was bad. I don't wish to whine any further. It wouldn't do me any good. I hope my ica project is good enough to pull my marks up for AN5. My prayers shall be with Allah.

My last paper tmr. Last exam in NYP. I can't wait for this to be over. I can finally see my boy. I've been saying 'NO' whenever he wants to meet because I've been too busy preparing for exams. Studies always comes first. Ya, i bet sucks to have me as a gf. Seriously, aku takde life. Sorry for neglecting you sayang. After tmr, I'm all yours.

Hopefully, sociology paper would be nice to me tmr. Gonna hit the books now!

2011-08-22T20:00:00.001+08:00

Am so tired of everything. Both mentally & physically.

2011-08-16T15:10:00.002+08:00

I love it when you hug me from behind and play with my ears, pretending you're a monster. I love it when you say i love you because i know you mean it. I love it when you sleep like a baby while i hug and lullaby you to sleep. I love it when you poke my tummy and make insane sound effects while playing with it.

I love you because you love me for who i am, you love me when i was 74kg and also when i am 55 kg.
I love you because you love me even when I throw my tantrums at you during pms period.
I love you because you make me smile and laugh everyday.
I love you because you make cute fat jokes.
I love you because you would drop everything you do, cancel your plans with your friends and come down to see me, regardless its 3am in the morning, just because i said, "i miss you syg, i feel like meeting you."
I love you because you're my funny, hilarious, charming, crazy boyfriend.
I love you because you're the only guy that I could trust, in my life.
I love you because you're the same person i fell in love with, 6 years ago.

I love you for so many reasons.
Hands down, you're the best.

2011-08-14T18:25:00.001+08:00

There are two main reasons why people in a relationship stop arguing.
1. They learnt to live with each other's flaws.
2. They just couldn't be bothered.

I'm taking a break from mugging. Now back to my lecture notes. I am really takot for exams.

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2011-08-13T15:50:00.002+08:00

Iftar with my babygirl at Newton Food Center last evening. We decide to satisfy our cravings for seafood. Sungguh memuaskan! Kangkong, gong-gong, calamari and stingray. Omg, i feel like eating the same food again tonight. Haha. Hungaaaaary.

2011-08-12T01:17:00.002+08:00

The feeling I had, after reading this, omg so SHIOK !

2011-08-09T23:49:00.002+08:00

To him (who called me 'penipu', who questions my beliefs to Allah, who is 24/7 paranoid about the people around him), you are testing my patience. To begin with, you ain't even my friend.

I hope you wld change, I'll pray for you.

Insyallah, you'll find your way.

I miss my fisherman. Atap, your mok misses you.

2011-08-08T16:25:00.006+08:00

You feel like you cannot go on, you feel so lost, all you see is darkness all around. You feel so helpless, you can’t see which way to go. You committed one more mistake, you feel you can’t repent and that its way too late. Your mind and your heart is full of shame. But don’t despair and never lose hope. Turn to Allah, because he's never far away. Put your trust in Him, raise your hands and pray. Insyallah, you'll find your way. He is always by your side.

2011-08-04T20:59:00.004+08:00

Birthday dinner treat at Cafe Carousel @ Royal Scott Plaza Hotel.

Specially for my Atapioooo who has just turned 23 yesterday.

Happy birthday Atap! Hope I made your evening/night :)

I love you baby.

2011-08-01T21:52:00.000+08:00

This ramadhan, I hope to be a better person, a better friend,

a better student and a better muslim.

Ya allah, forgive me for all my sins. Subhanallah.

2011-07-27T22:26:00.003+08:00

ONE CRAZY WEEK.

2011-07-25T21:33:00.023+08:00

2011-07-24T16:12:00.006+08:00

For my Atapio :)

Headed to town with Jolyn and her bf yesterday, secretly without my boyfriend's acknowledgement. I plan to get his birthday gift at Fossil. With Jingpeng's help, I managed to get a wallet. And it's a brand new design which just came in yesterday too. That's what the sales person told me, and I was like "Perfect!"

His birthday is in a week time, but I'm too excited to wait till 3rd August. Met him last night, head to Changi to get his fishing stuffs and pass him the gift. The first thing he said was, "HUH? CEPATNYE YOU BAGI I??BILE YOU PEGI TOWN?" Hahaha. Your girlfriend very kan-chiong lah. What do you expect? Hope you love it.

His birthday falls on a fasting month. I made reservations for a Carousel dinner buffet at Royal Plaza On Scotts Hotel. A simple birthday dinner, just you, me and the food. If you tak dapat off on 3rd August, I will kill you.

Can't wait! Have a great weekend people.

Got this from facebook. I was tagged by my secondary school mates. Omg. I can't believe that's me. Gemoknye. eeeeeee. That's eka on the left. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.

Have a great weekend people.

2011-07-22T01:16:00.002+08:00

Final Year Project feeling-feeling group photo moments.

We look like real estate agents. Business women or Nurses? lol.

Heading to bed now. Project discussion from 10 am to probably night tmr.

:'(

2011-07-21T23:07:00.007+08:00

I realize there's some kind of storm brewing in your eyes,

It's veiled by a thin disguise.

And boy there's something about your words that hurts.

2011-07-17T20:29:00.006+08:00

Rebel with Nana and her poly mates on Saturday night. Cute chinese guys kept on coming. Hell yeah, it was a great night. They respect you too when you say, "Hey fyi, I got a boyfriend". So much better than typical mat melayu. I have this thing for sepet guys lah. IDK WHY.

Boyfriend was at China One, we met after partying. As always, I was damn excited to see him. But shit happened. I don't know what to say.. It was so stupid.

Anyway, met Eka @ yishun. We both had a fucked up Sunday. But we made our Sunday a good one by meeting up. I can't believe we talked for 7 hours. "Ton ah sial." Haha. I love you bitch.

There's this charming + fucking hot + handsome nak mampos + cute guy whom I had a crush on since I was 11 years old. Same primary school, sat beside each other. Hehe. Now he's schooling at NYP too. I'll be in cloud 9 everytime he calls out my name and smile.

And I just got to know that..... He's GAY. I could hear my heart broke into pieces when I got to know that news. Haha. I'll never look at him the same way again. Hancur harapan ku... :(

2011-07-16T14:32:00.002+08:00

My next big splurge, on a pair of Nuabs.

The one in Gold is super sexy.

Boleh orgasm.

2011-07-14T22:40:00.004+08:00

My last skills test @ NYP and I made it. I passed. Alhamdullilah. It was good for me, I did not make any mistakes and I got a nice lecturer as my assessor.

Lecturer: Ain da baca Bismillah belom ni?

Aeen: Hehe. Da baca 5 kali da.

Last night, my boyfriend came all the way from Tamp, to helped me with revision. We headed to the bar&bistro @ bottle tree, he had some drinks and I had finger foods. Fried shitake mushrooms, the best! hmm. Tell me how am I supposed to diet? Anw, he took my notes and help me with it. Revise, Revise, Revise. Gave me some words of encouragement, exactly what I needed.

Short but perfect night.

Always a perfect night with him.

Although I'm stressed out, he never fail to make me smile. Always.

He have his ways. He knows me well.

He is crazy. He is adorable. He is irritating. He is sweet.

He is black. He is funny. He is sexy.

Only god knows how much I love this boy.

2011-07-12T22:03:00.009+08:00

I want to do well, graduate and be a Staff Nurse. Nothing else.

Insyallah. Insyallah. Insyallah.

Okay, shall go back to revising now.

2011-07-10T14:53:00.011+08:00

Our supper. 3 people. 2 large and 1 medium twister fries.

Last night, went back to Sembawang, met eka and we had dinner @ Rubinah's. We visited my old place, then we sat somewhere quiet and Eka painted my face. We got stalked by a bangla man who wore red shorts and blue striped shirt. He followed us and loitered ard for 1 hr plus, then he gave us a cheeky smile. We head to macs to feel safe. Cb, fucking sick bangla.

At 2 am, my boyfriend finally arrived. Feels so good to see him. He was supposed to be at a party @ Movida last night. It's was his friend's birthday but, he chose to meet us instead. I was touched. Hehe."You touched my tra la la, my ding ding dong." Bestnye my boyfriend. I loike.

His birthday, 3rd August, in 24 days time. I have no idea what to get him.

-Bought him a gshock watch.

-Bought him a dkny cologne.

-Wanted to get him an itouch but we got an Iphone.

Shoes? Wallet? Bag? Gadgets?

fuck, I have no idea.

He's damn adorable. That's my nephew. I can't wait to bite off and chew his flabby cheeks. I wanna kiss his short arms and kidnap him. There's something about me and fat babies. I'm crazy about them.

I told my boyfriend, if we're meant to be, I wanna get married at 26. I want fat babies latest by 28, i don't care. I WANT.

2011-07-07T20:36:00.005+08:00

When I receive this text , I whispered to myself, "HEHE. BESTNYE."

Hopefully, I won't fall asleep early tonight. I want to see my boy.

Just like he said, 10 minutes pon jadi.

Rindu.

I want this. I want this. I want this.

But they don't sell it @ NYP's macdonalds. Stupid.

I don't care, I'm gonna drag Atap to Mac later.

We will spend that 10 minutes eating Chocolate Melts and Twister Fries.

Yeay yeay. I am a fat happy mokie.

Atap: What are you researching about?

Me: Unsatisfied nurses.

Atap: Sounds like a porn title to me.

Me: .......... $#^@#$#$!

Orang sibuk buat research, die cakap orang tengok porn. Geram!!

But at least he made me smile for a couple of seconds.

2011-07-05T13:38:00.009+08:00

Sneakers from Atapio :)

Out with them last night, it was great. I always have hell of a good time whenever I'm with them. We watched 'Your Highness' at Cathay and head for some sheesha at Arab street. The movie was all about sex, one hilarious movie. lol.

Before the movie, while waiting for Eka and Bir to arrive, my boyfriend dragged me into Cathay's Adidas shop. I saw this sneakers, I took it, I look at the price tag and then place it back in place. He took the same sneakers and said, "Lawa lah! You want?" And then went ahead to ask the sales person to get my size. I was damn surprised. I kept asking him, "are you for real? are you for real?". So sweet of him. Thank you baby. Love the shoes. Love you too.

Theory test tmr. 8am class tmr. Don't think i'll be sleeping tonight.

Eka, the rest of the pics are @ fb. Go activate yr fb and grab it. *Evil laugh*

2011-07-04T15:24:00.001+08:00

Double movie date with boyfriend, eka and bir later. My posting is out, now we can start planning our holiday. Yeay!

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2011-07-03T22:47:00.003+08:00

Mere mortals do not have the gift to read minds and hearts.

Therefore, what we perceive from what others portray may lead us astray.

Truth be told, I still miss you. You still linger in this very life of mine.

I hope you know you still cross my mind time and again.

2011-07-03T15:26:00.020+08:00

Red is sexaaay. Senior year. YEAH!

Senior year. I'm left with 3 months of school in NYP. Preparations, Presentations, FYP, Tests, Exams. Sometimes I'm not sure whether I can go through this. Sometimes I feel like quitting school. I'm not a strong person, I give up easily without encouragement, but I'm blessed to have such encouraging friends.

ZOUK-ing

Went partayyying with Nana and friends last night at ZOUK. It was awesome. Boyfriend fetched me from zouk, that was sweet of him and I was extra nice, Heheh.. I love you.

I didn't want to go but my boyfriend persuaded me to go, to release my stress. Sometimes I wonder, why is he's not worried uh? Haha. Thanks for the green light, my boy.

I guess, trust is the key thing, in a relationship.

2011-07-02T17:14:00.000+08:00

2005

I found this in my diary. I thought I lost it.

Hahahahahaha.

I was 15, he was 17.

2011-06-28T19:59:00.008+08:00

Girlfriends got me some sourvenirs from their trip. So sweet of them.

I will get you girls something when I go on a holiday too!

I wonder when..

I found these letters, in my closet.

It was from him, the days when he was in remand & db.

Gosh, I'm going crazy.

God only knows why it's taking me so long to let you go.

2011-06-26T20:22:00.000+08:00

Haliza's engagement party and we went bollywoooood :) Hindustani.

There's still more pictures to be uploaded but I malas nak upload.

Happy birthday and happy engagement Haliza!

2011-06-25T00:31:00.001+08:00

I'm loving you, from a distance.
Just so you know.

Sat plans: Gf's bdae @ chalet with babygirl.

Sun plans: Bollywood engagement party. I will dress up like an indian. Baju aku nye colour je da mcm 'markel' habis. Tak boleh angkat, totally not me. Green and pink.

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2011-06-23T22:13:00.001+08:00

I can't remember how many times I cried today + the past five days.

I can sense, period coming.

2011-06-22T18:18:00.006+08:00

" There's nothing quite like listening to a song written by someone you don't know, who somehow manage to describe exactly how you felt at that particular moment, in your life.

If you ever had a broken heart, you're about to remember it now. "

I heard that you're settled down, that you found a girl and you're married now.

I heard that your dreams came true, guess she gave you things, I didn't give you.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited but I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I hoped you'd see my face and you'd be reminded that, for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you, I wish nothing but the best for you too.
"Don't forget me," I begged. "I'll remember", you said.
Sometimes it last in love, but sometimes it hurts instead.

Regrets and mistakes, they're memories made.

2011-06-20T12:36:00.000+08:00

Happy 1 year anniversary Amirul Asyraf.

Love you.

2011-06-17T23:59:00.000+08:00

You don't know me well enough to know that I'm hurting.

2011-06-13T16:12:00.007+08:00

Atap's and Mine.

:)
But I like his better than mine.

It has alot of other cool functions , plus it's cheaper.

2011-06-13T00:15:00.000+08:00

I'm at starbucks right now with my two favourite siblings. Shasha and fahmi. We got too bored. We're having our hols and had nothing much to do at home. In an hour time, my Atapio will be joining us. Was supposed to meet Shabir and him tonight, but I guess bir is asleep, no respond from him. Well, I can't wait to see my baby. Geeee :)

Anyways, my bro is growing fat. He's so fat and round and smooth. But he's cute lah. But still, I'm scared for him, if he get too fat, no chicks would want him.

2011-06-12T13:41:00.004+08:00

Hen's Night @ Attica

After party shagness. I hope the bride had the time of her life. There's loads more pictures but I'm too lazy to upload. Can't wait to party with Rina and Liyanah again :) I shall bring eka along too. I miss her already. She's away at batam. I hope she's having fun there.

I wanna meet my boy...... We're both too busy with our social life, school and work, to spend time together. I get frustrated sometimes but that's just me. Aeen can be quite temperamental. Well, every girl is. Guys, if you want a girl who won't give you mood swings problem, go date a sheep instead. lol. Ok bye.

I nak watch Hangover 2. Anyone?

2011-06-11T23:50:00.002+08:00

It was the last day of school and it was a friday, friday, friday! I was damn happy!

Headed to Bar&Bistro at bottle tree with Lynna Loy after school. We remembered the last time we went there, I was feeling damn emotional because Reezal cheated on me and lynna was sad too, over some guy. We promised each other that, the next time we step into that bar, we'll be way happier than we were before. And we are.

At night, I headed to Attica with Rina and Liyanah for their friend's bachelorrette party. The theme was , 'all black'. It was our virgin trip to Attica but i think that's gonna be our last time too. Hate the dancefloor, so hot and small. There must be a problem with the A/C. Music? Not bad. People? Full of cinas, ang mohs and fat malay girls. Like, obese fat. LOL. And they joget with semangat. hahaha.

But anyways, friday was a good day.

Saturday was spent shopping for electronic stuffs. Atap got his new DELL laptop, while I got my FUJITSU lifebook, red colour. Damn sexaaaay. I don't know why my dad was so random tdy, while we're watching tv, he came up to me and say, "Jom, lets buy you a new laptop. But don't tell your mum k. I buy using my money. hehe." I was quite shocked. Thought it was a dream. haha. But, anyways, thanks ayah!

I partied last night, tonight it's my boyfriend's turn to party. He asked me to tag along but my feet is still aching from the heels i wore last night. He sent me this sudden text message. So cute. I love you.

I need to save up for our anny. I have to make sure that I dont touch my savings but how ley?? haiya, everyday stay home lah.

2011-06-09T23:54:00.002+08:00

I'm so tired. I've been either not sleeping, or sleeping late. I've been so busy, staying back till late for school related stuffs. I need more sleep. My throat hurts. I don't know what to wear for presentation tmr, the theme is 'black', but i have too many black tops to wear. I pon stress.

Last day of school tmr before my 2 weeks holidays starts. Last presentation before school ends. I hope tmr will be a better day. I'll be heading to the bar with Lynna right after school. Yeah, I'm so gonna need a couple beers. After a long stressful 8 weeks of school, i need a break. Was supposed to meet my boyfriend tmr night, but forget it lah. I could join Rina @ her friend's bachelorrete party tmr night.